I was going through some old Evernote notes while I was doing some cleaning up. (In reality, I was procrastinating on my final year Masters thesis.) I came across several notes going back to 2011 about making a career change. This has been something that I’ve been looking at for almost a decade.
But I never made a step to make that change.
At that time, it was also when I quit my job and was looking to start my business. I ended up starting that business along the same career path. I ended up not changing anything much. Even the work that I got was a continuation of what I was already doing in my old job.
I’ve always looked at the hard work I’ve put in building myself to where I am. It’s hard making a change to something else. It’s was especially difficult given that I have a family to provide for and a change in careers would mean a considerable difference in lifestyle.
Even as I think about it now, I’m terrified of the prospect. I am terrified of losing the advances in my current career. Of losing my status. Of losing my influence.
Which is confusing, as I thought about this and the contradiction to my purpose yesterday. Guess knowing my purpose isn’t enough.
Given this, and if after all of this time I still can’t make that change, will I ever do it?