Today is my auntie Elar’s funeral.
I’m not too broken up about it.
Often I feel nothing until after the end. The sudden sadness engulfing me for no reason.
Emotions are like that I suppose. Feel nothing and then suddenly it all comes out like a dam breaks.
Nothing to control it. Nothing to stop it.
Perhaps it shouldn’t be stopped. Shouldn’t be evaluated. Just felt.
But we can’t help but to analyse our feelings.
Why am I feeling this way? Why can’t I stop it? What’s wrong with me?
There is nothing wrong. We have emotions to tell us to notice. And we should just notice.
If you feel sad, just notice that you’re sad. If you feel angry, notice that you’re angry. If you feel happy, even then, notice that you’re happy.
That’s what you should do, but most people don’t do that. They just let the feelings and emotions overrun them and they lose control.
Don’t be like that.
Take time to really feel and notice your emotions. It’s one of the best things you can do for yourself and the people around you.