… then why do I read so many management books? Or read management blogs? And take online courses for leadership training?
This is just a paradox for me.
Or maybe it’s not that I don’t like being a manager. Maybe I just don’t like managing people…
… then why do I read so many team building and coaching books? Or read managing people blogs? And take online courses for people management?
Or maybe I just don’t like managing projects…
… then why do I read so many project management books? Or read project execution blogs? And take online courses for project delivery?
It doesn’t make sense, does it?
It seems that it’s not that I don’t like being manager, or managing people, or managing projects. I do like those things.
What I don’t like is failing gloriously at it.
I’ve made some successes, but it’s easy to focus on the negative. That’s human nature.
I should reframe my thinking.
Focus on making a difference. On improving someone’s life. On delivering what I promised.
And I try. But it’s hard coming home feeling emotionally drained. And still not having anything to show for it.
But I’m told that’s what comes with the job. And that sucks.
And that’s why I hate being a manager. But I will continue to try to be a better one.